The ramblings of a mad woman...maybe...

As I find myself feeling rather distressed by the current state of the six nations game between Ireland and England I thought I would distract myself by thinking and writing.

The new job starts on Monday and I am feeling fairly indifferent.  Not nervous, not excited, just blank.  I suspect this is not a good thing.

Typically in such situations I would go shopping, ideally at the moment for some lovely plants for the garden, but I sadly it is now one week before pay day in a month when I had to pay my road tax so shopping is right off the agenda.

Instead I went theoretical bike shopping.  When I am paid my bonus (on Friday lets hope!) I will be spending some of it on the deposit for a beautiful bright red pashley bicycle.  Now this is something I can get excited about  ... it has a basket at the front and everything!

Today I find myself exhausted by life.  Tomorrow I am determined to find myself passionate, enthused and ready to make changes... watch this space.

Sigh...

... I never was one for diaries - I used to begin a diary at least 4 times a year when I was younger and then give up after about 2 days, returning a few months or years later and cringing in embarrassment.  It would seem that a blog is merely the latest reincarnation of a diary - except prettier and hopefully less embarrassing!

So, in an attempt to restart my future I will begin with cheery thoughts - 3 good things that happened today...

1 ***   I had three nightmares and survived them all!
2 ***   I am learning to control my custard cream obsession - only 4 today
3 ***   For the second day this year I walked to work without needing a coat - truly a happy and momentous occasion.

May your tomorrow be filled with sunshine and lovely thoughts or brighter days and good times with great friends.

Distinct lack of progress...

This week has mostly demonstrated a distinct lack of progress.

I have learnt a lot but failed to do much with my magical new knowledge.

The course I attended on Wednesday evening was brilliant - informative, inspiring and another adjective beginning with "i" which I can't currently think of.  It seems madness that such things will be a thing of the past in a few months time thanks to spending cuts - especially considering the number of redundant people in attendance.

Anyway, since being inspired I have done little of action.  I have, though, been doing a lot of thinking - mostly about how I can best carry out market research.  I continue to think...

I will, of course, let you know how that goes...

So... What is the dream?

The life I have imagined...

A Floral Emporium, in a beautiful Cotswold market town where everything has an floral element - from camomile tea to floral tea dresses, from fresh cut peonies to vintage floral bedspreads.

It is the sort of place you walk into from a bustling street and instantly feel that life is just that little bit prettier than you had realised.


Back down to earth... 

Having said that in the real world I work for an insurance company in a job that no longer excites me with a mortgage that cripples me and a house I adore.

As a result, jacking in the daily grind and just getting on with it isn't such an option (not without the elusive lottery win at least).  This, of course, doesn't mean I have given up on the dream... just that I am having to be a little more considered.

This year then I am setting up the online version of my dream - now all I have to do is design a website, get a loan, find some things to sell, persuade people to buy stuff from me... not much then really...

Watch this space...

The very start of the journey...

... this is the year in which I begin my journey towards the life I have imagined and this blog will act as my diary - holding within it the much-awaited highs and inevitable lows ahead.